Her Remorse

I once imprisoned myself
In a cage of sadness.
I drowned myself with my own tears.
I embraced the feeling of
Loneliness’ chain around my neck.
I once lived a life of blue
I was a pool of mess
I didn’t know any other feelings
Except melancholy.

Until I was given a shot
To taste a dip of happiness.
It was nice.
It was a mixed feeling of
Being freed from the chain
that held me from a long time
And being rescued from drowning
in a sea of tears.
I wish I knew before that
There exist happiness just beside sadness.

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Anchors are for Ships

“I was born to sail.”

That’s what I always say whenever she’s asking why are we doing this. She is my greatest companion. She’s with me wherever I go. She’s always there no matter how strong waves are and how cold ocean is. With her, I can just sail and sail not wanting more. I can go places, stay and wander if I want to but that was before I sent her away. I sent her away not knowing that she’s the most important part of me. I wish I have known earlier that without her I’d sink. Without her I’d be nothing but a ship slowly sinking deeper and deeper. Now here I am, beneath my beloved ocean, dysfunctional without my anchor.

You were once my someone
My rainbows and butterflies
My stars and sunshines
You were once my bliss
The reason to my loudest laughters
Down to my sweetest smiles
You were that someone I believed in
That someone I trusted with no doubts in between
You were my ‘go-to’ person
My ‘every’ buddy
My shoulder to lean on
You were basically my safe zone
My haven and my home

Because once upon a time,
We met each other.
Fate found its way for us to be together
And suddenly we clicked
We became something platonic–
And even more than that.
We were partners in crime
We were inseparable
We were solid
We were each other’s everything
And I thought we were endless

But you became so distant
You became cold
Your hands intertwined in mine 
slowly loosened its hold.
You became someone you promised you never be
You changed…
And you forgot me
We were not the same as before
We grew apart
And then we were nothing

You took me so high just to left me hanging
You pulled me close just to pushed me away
You made me whole just to crashed me into pieces
And how I wish you didn’t.

   —here’s to our fleeting moment

Crepuscule

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Some says that sunsets
radiate sadness.
Whenever it appear,
You’d just feel its heaviness in your chest.
Some says that sunsets
are goodbyes
For it give off the feeling of an end.
Some says that sunsets
are just a mere setting of the sun

I refuse to believe.

Deep within me, I know
It is serenity
It is of hope and new beginnings.
The end of the day yet the start of another.
And everytime I’ll lay eyes on the sunset,
I want myself to be reminded of those.

Wrecked by a Promise

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I should’ve never listened
Should’ve never believed
I should’ve never let this muscle ruled me—
Never let these feelings took control

Yet, I did.
I chose to listen,
To believe.
I let this muscle decide
I chose to hear every single thing he promised to do.
He promised me he will..
He promised me..
He promised..

And it took him those promises to wreck me.
It took me those promises to learn
And it was not easy
For reality slapped me real hard
That promises truly are meant to be broken