Her Remorse

I once imprisoned myself
In a cage of sadness.
I drowned myself with my own tears.
I embraced the feeling of
Loneliness’ chain around my neck.
I once lived a life of blue
I was a pool of mess
I didn’t know any other feelings
Except melancholy.

Until I was given a shot
To taste a dip of happiness.
It was nice.
It was a mixed feeling of
Being freed from the chain
that held me from a long time
And being rescued from drowning
in a sea of tears.
I wish I knew before that
There exist happiness just beside sadness.

You were once my someone
My rainbows and butterflies
My stars and sunshines
You were once my bliss
The reason to my loudest laughters
Down to my sweetest smiles
You were that someone I believed in
That someone I trusted with no doubts in between
You were my ‘go-to’ person
My ‘every’ buddy
My shoulder to lean on
You were basically my safe zone
My haven and my home

Because once upon a time,
We met each other.
Fate found its way for us to be together
And suddenly we clicked
We became something platonic–
And even more than that.
We were partners in crime
We were inseparable
We were solid
We were each other’s everything
And I thought we were endless

But you became so distant
You became cold
Your hands intertwined in mine 
slowly loosened its hold.
You became someone you promised you never be
You changed…
And you forgot me
We were not the same as before
We grew apart
And then we were nothing

You took me so high just to left me hanging
You pulled me close just to pushed me away
You made me whole just to crashed me into pieces
And how I wish you didn’t.

   —here’s to our fleeting moment



Some says that sunsets
radiate sadness.
Whenever it appear,
You’d just feel its heaviness in your chest.
Some says that sunsets
are goodbyes
For it give off the feeling of an end.
Some says that sunsets
are just a mere setting of the sun

I refuse to believe.

Deep within me, I know
It is serenity
It is of hope and new beginnings.
The end of the day yet the start of another.
And everytime I’ll lay eyes on the sunset,
I want myself to be reminded of those.

Susugal Ako Sayo

Susugal ako sayo
Kahit ayaw nila
Kahit maraming duda
Kahit maraming kontra
Susubukan ko

Alam kong suntok sa buwan tong gagawin ko
Hindi ko alam kung may mapapala ba ko
Para kong isang sundalong sasabak sa gyera
Na hindi alam kung pagkatapos makakaligtas ba

Sabi kasi nila mali daw na mahulog sayo
Hindi raw tama na bigyan kita ng pagkakataon
Pinipilit nilang baguhin ang isip ko kahit na desidido naman na ko sayo
Kasi raw sasaktan mo lang ako
Kasi raw paiiyakin mo lang ako
Hindi raw ikaw yung dapat sa buhay ko
Ang dami dami nilang komento
Ewan ko, basta ako, susugal ako sayo.

Alam kong pwedeng tama nga sila
Na sa una lang magiging masaya
Na kalagitnaan unti-unti ka ring magsasawa
At bandang dulo iiyak ako at mauuwi lang sa wala
Pero ano bang magagawa ko?
Hindi ko na kayang tanggihan pa ang puso ko
Ilang beses na kong nagpadala sa takot
Maraming beses ko na pinigilan ang sarili ko na mahulog
At hindi ko naisip na isinasantabi ko na pala ang karapatan kong sumaya

Kaya sa pagkakataong to, 
Pikit mata kong susugal sayo
Masaktan na kung masaktan
Basta susubukan ko
Bahala na.
Bahala na kung hindi man ikaw yung tamang tao
Wala na kong pakialam kung sino ang sino

Pero sana,
Sana kung tama sila at ikaw nga yung maling tao,
Ikaw sana yung tipo ng maling tao na handang maging tama para sa sumubok na ako.

Wrecked by a Promise


I should’ve never listened
Should’ve never believed
I should’ve never let this muscle ruled me—
Never let these feelings took control

Yet, I did.
I chose to listen,
To believe.
I let this muscle decide
I chose to hear every single thing he promised to do.
He promised me he will..
He promised me..
He promised..

And it took him those promises to wreck me.
It took me those promises to learn
And it was not easy
For reality slapped me real hard
That promises truly are meant to be broken